I don't like rap because it's the part of a song that's most like poetry - no melody, just recited to a beat or rhythm. I can appreciate poetry, understand some of the 'hidden meanings' but the one thing I cannot do with poetry is write it. I can't because I'm not a poetic person - I've never been. I write frankly with conviction and feeling - I don't beat around the bush or try to cover up what I want to say. I think that's why I'm good at reaching 'the masses' or ordinary people - I say things as they are.
If I can't write it or do it, I can't relate to it. I can't draw and so, I'm not a big visual arts fan - I don't see why people spend so much time staring at one artwork. Yes, I respect every single form of creativity whatever it may be but respect doesn't have to mean personal preference. I may not like it but it's a product of someone's creativity so who am I to tell the person it's wrong or disrespect the creation?
I don't like rap because it's like poetry. I don't like poetry because I can't write it. Thus, I don't like rap because I can't do it. But I don't think that's the only reason.
When I listen to a song, the first thing I look for is a moving melody - without it the instrumentation, arrangement or other elements of the song mean nothing. The minute I get even an ounce of interest in the song, I begin to notice everything else - that's just how I look at music. I need melody for me to like a song.
Rap has no melody. I'm stating it as a fact - not as an opinion. Thus, I don't like rap.
HOWEVER if rap is done tastefully and creatively to my ears, then everything's OK. An example is Craig David's This Is The Girl - the song is predominantly rap and the first thing I fell in love with was the melody of the chorus but over time I noticed that the rap part wasn't as bad as I made it out to be. It's tasteful - no excessive obscenity and the rhythm was interesting. Not that I have a problem with obscenity - if it's what the writer wants, then so be it. As long as the end product tasteful, that's all I ask.
What do I mean by tasteful? To me, taste is something different in every person - it's a matter of personal preference. There is however a certain aesthetic every 'genre' or 'field' must follow. I'm not saying that people shouldn't think out of the box, I'm just saying that rap must be appropriate to the music - nothing else. It must not overpower the music, it must not contradict the music - it's there to compliment and so it should be appropriate to what it's complementing.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
The State of the Industry (June 26, 2009)
Taken from my Tumblr: http://writergirl.tumblr.com/post/130620879
I adore Rain - his music, his performances, his persistence and how he broke countless moulds set before his time but watching one of his interviews has made me respect the guy and what he stands for.
Wherever I go I always complain about how stupid record company executives are because all they care about is how much they sell - they know absolutely nothing about the music itself but think they can tell the artists what to do because it sells. When Rain was making his 2008 album, he said that his main goal was to make a good album - not to sell or make money.
It’s hard to find people like that in the industry nowadays because the record company execs are stupid enough to think that people won’t notice if they don’t know anything about music - they think WE’RE the stupid ones.
I’m not stupid. I know how the industry worked before, I know how it works now and I don’t like it. While all these talentless and tasteless people who don’t do any justice to music as an art dominate people’s ears and iPods, the artists with the talent, drive and actual artistry are pushed to the sidelines just because ‘they won’t sell’.
Music isn’t made to be sold. I repeat - MUSIC ISN’T MADE TO BE SOLD. Music was made because there are people who live their lives for it, who are so passionate about it that they will die trying to make it and what to these executives do to it? They sell it, treat it like a commodity and put a price on it, saying that anyone who doesn’t pay for music will face ‘consequences’.
I’m sick and tired of the recording industry taking down download links and making a big deal about illegal downloading. Yes, artists lose money because of that but they’ve found new ways to earn back the money they spend making the album - concerts, copyrighting, clothing lines, all the gimmicks. That’s how they make money now and the industry should understand that. I don’t necessarily think artists should be millionaires - there are people in the world who live middle-class lives and they don’t seem to have a problem with it. You should make music because you love it, not because you’ll earn tons of money from it. Yes, you’ll be a lot more comfortable with the fame but that’s the the only think that matters - the music will always come first.
You get recognized on the internet, artists are noticed not because they spent this much money on this particular album but because they make an impact on people. Writing their own songs, singing covers, posting home recordings - they’re all made with limited funds but with overflowing amounts of creativity.
I personally download an album then if I like it and it’s available here, then I buy it. The problem is, the music isn’t available for purchase here - why are the record companies blaming us for something that’s their fault? I mean, it’s because they don’t bother to send over albums to this tiny little third-world country in Southeast Asia because they think we know nothing. HELLO!? I’m sick and tired of being marginalized just because I come from a poor country. I have a right to develop my own taste in music - I HAVE A RIGHT TO LISTEN TO MUSIC I LIKE AND NOT CHANGE MY TASTES JUST BECAUSE THEY DON’T SELL THE PHYSICAL ALBUMS HERE.
I respect Rain because he doesn’t look like money - that’s not the only thing he cares about in life. Yes, I like the idea of a lot of money but I’m Chinese and I was raised with values passed down from generation to generation. I was taught that yes, you need money to survive in the capitalist world but you should be frugal and spend on things you need. I personally like looking at expensive things and dream of owning them but if you actually give me money and tell me to buy anything I want I honestly won’t buy anything - I have a mentality that if I buy something now, something better might come in the future and I won’t have any more money to buy it.
Straying from the topic, much?
You get my point. I hate the recording industry and I want to change it - even if I’m ‘just someone from a poor country’.
I adore Rain - his music, his performances, his persistence and how he broke countless moulds set before his time but watching one of his interviews has made me respect the guy and what he stands for.
Wherever I go I always complain about how stupid record company executives are because all they care about is how much they sell - they know absolutely nothing about the music itself but think they can tell the artists what to do because it sells. When Rain was making his 2008 album, he said that his main goal was to make a good album - not to sell or make money.
It’s hard to find people like that in the industry nowadays because the record company execs are stupid enough to think that people won’t notice if they don’t know anything about music - they think WE’RE the stupid ones.
I’m not stupid. I know how the industry worked before, I know how it works now and I don’t like it. While all these talentless and tasteless people who don’t do any justice to music as an art dominate people’s ears and iPods, the artists with the talent, drive and actual artistry are pushed to the sidelines just because ‘they won’t sell’.
Music isn’t made to be sold. I repeat - MUSIC ISN’T MADE TO BE SOLD. Music was made because there are people who live their lives for it, who are so passionate about it that they will die trying to make it and what to these executives do to it? They sell it, treat it like a commodity and put a price on it, saying that anyone who doesn’t pay for music will face ‘consequences’.
I’m sick and tired of the recording industry taking down download links and making a big deal about illegal downloading. Yes, artists lose money because of that but they’ve found new ways to earn back the money they spend making the album - concerts, copyrighting, clothing lines, all the gimmicks. That’s how they make money now and the industry should understand that. I don’t necessarily think artists should be millionaires - there are people in the world who live middle-class lives and they don’t seem to have a problem with it. You should make music because you love it, not because you’ll earn tons of money from it. Yes, you’ll be a lot more comfortable with the fame but that’s the the only think that matters - the music will always come first.
You get recognized on the internet, artists are noticed not because they spent this much money on this particular album but because they make an impact on people. Writing their own songs, singing covers, posting home recordings - they’re all made with limited funds but with overflowing amounts of creativity.
I personally download an album then if I like it and it’s available here, then I buy it. The problem is, the music isn’t available for purchase here - why are the record companies blaming us for something that’s their fault? I mean, it’s because they don’t bother to send over albums to this tiny little third-world country in Southeast Asia because they think we know nothing. HELLO!? I’m sick and tired of being marginalized just because I come from a poor country. I have a right to develop my own taste in music - I HAVE A RIGHT TO LISTEN TO MUSIC I LIKE AND NOT CHANGE MY TASTES JUST BECAUSE THEY DON’T SELL THE PHYSICAL ALBUMS HERE.
I respect Rain because he doesn’t look like money - that’s not the only thing he cares about in life. Yes, I like the idea of a lot of money but I’m Chinese and I was raised with values passed down from generation to generation. I was taught that yes, you need money to survive in the capitalist world but you should be frugal and spend on things you need. I personally like looking at expensive things and dream of owning them but if you actually give me money and tell me to buy anything I want I honestly won’t buy anything - I have a mentality that if I buy something now, something better might come in the future and I won’t have any more money to buy it.
Straying from the topic, much?
You get my point. I hate the recording industry and I want to change it - even if I’m ‘just someone from a poor country’.
A Teen's Mind.
A child's mind is complex and often misunderstood but a teen's mind is even more confusing and convoluted. Why? We're children given tasks and responsibilities of adults - kids thrown into an adult world. We have kids minds and hardly any experiences to shape us and yet we're faced with time pressure, growing up, body issues, a society that's confusing and a myriad of roads to follow through.
Yet I'm extremely happy where I am. I can understand what's happening in the world, point out what's right and wrong but not have to take all the responsibility for political, social and economical matters. I have the opportunity to see the world like an adult but act like a kid.
Like an adult I know what I want, I want to write but like a kid I don't have that much experience to actually professionally write.
Yet I'm extremely happy where I am. I can understand what's happening in the world, point out what's right and wrong but not have to take all the responsibility for political, social and economical matters. I have the opportunity to see the world like an adult but act like a kid.
Like an adult I know what I want, I want to write but like a kid I don't have that much experience to actually professionally write.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Interview: Ju-Taun
Part of my portfolio, here's the interview that meant the world to me and still does. I respect these guys so much for their answers. The questions and write-up were made by me.
You've seen them on my weekly top 20 and have heard me rave about them on Twitter so why exactly have I been doing those things? Because my friends, I bring you my second indie interview.
The first time I ever heard Ju-Taun I was in awe of the impeccably executed vocals, the swoon-worthy harmonies and everything else that draws me to vocal groups - be it a boy band, girl group or whatever. I thought musically they were one of the best groups I'd heard in the past three years and believe me, I've heard a ton of them so yeah - I adored them from the first note I heard come out of their mouths. Let Me In is a staggering 7 minutes-long but you know what? The time just flew by while I was listening to it - those seven minutes didn't and will never seem like 7 minutes because I lose track of time when I listen to their music.
The first time I heard Let Me In I was using crappy bass-less and flat to the point of tin can-y earphones so right now as I listen to the song with a brand new pair of earphones with the best bass and sound quality ever, the brilliance I first heard now sounds life-changing. Their other songs are equally brilliant as well and I think Es Amor is just below Let Me In when it comes to the quality of the songs. Oh dear, have I become a fan girl? No problem there!
Just the music made me desperately want to interview the band so I prepared the questions as critically and close to home as possible and sent them in before waiting a few days. Apart from the quick response I got, while reading the interview for the first time as a whole just before I started doing this write-up, their answers made me smile so much.
I don't know if they knew I believed in the same things I do but I saw answers that practically took a page out of my principles that have to do with music. It's rare that I find artists who read my mind this precisely and this is the first time I've heard someone say them directly to me - I'm dumbfounded. They've given me a reason to fight harder for what I believe in - knowing that a band has the same principles and ideals as me and is fighting for the same things I am really inspires me.
So, please do take the time to read their answers to nine of the questions that were brewing in my head and really get to know the band - what they said here means a lot to me and for that I now genuinely respect them as artists. You do realize if you don't know already that my artistic/creative respect is something I don't give to just anyone.
You've seen them on my weekly top 20 and have heard me rave about them on Twitter so why exactly have I been doing those things? Because my friends, I bring you my second indie interview.
The first time I ever heard Ju-Taun I was in awe of the impeccably executed vocals, the swoon-worthy harmonies and everything else that draws me to vocal groups - be it a boy band, girl group or whatever. I thought musically they were one of the best groups I'd heard in the past three years and believe me, I've heard a ton of them so yeah - I adored them from the first note I heard come out of their mouths. Let Me In is a staggering 7 minutes-long but you know what? The time just flew by while I was listening to it - those seven minutes didn't and will never seem like 7 minutes because I lose track of time when I listen to their music.
The first time I heard Let Me In I was using crappy bass-less and flat to the point of tin can-y earphones so right now as I listen to the song with a brand new pair of earphones with the best bass and sound quality ever, the brilliance I first heard now sounds life-changing. Their other songs are equally brilliant as well and I think Es Amor is just below Let Me In when it comes to the quality of the songs. Oh dear, have I become a fan girl? No problem there!
Just the music made me desperately want to interview the band so I prepared the questions as critically and close to home as possible and sent them in before waiting a few days. Apart from the quick response I got, while reading the interview for the first time as a whole just before I started doing this write-up, their answers made me smile so much.
I don't know if they knew I believed in the same things I do but I saw answers that practically took a page out of my principles that have to do with music. It's rare that I find artists who read my mind this precisely and this is the first time I've heard someone say them directly to me - I'm dumbfounded. They've given me a reason to fight harder for what I believe in - knowing that a band has the same principles and ideals as me and is fighting for the same things I am really inspires me.
So, please do take the time to read their answers to nine of the questions that were brewing in my head and really get to know the band - what they said here means a lot to me and for that I now genuinely respect them as artists. You do realize if you don't know already that my artistic/creative respect is something I don't give to just anyone.
1. In theory I see you as somewhat a boyband - you sing songs, don't play your own instruments and you're vocal harmony-based. To you yourselves, what are you? Are you what I said you were or do you have another term for yourselves?
There's such a stigma and preconceived notion that comes to mind when the term "boyband" is used. Maybe "Vocal Group" would be better. But then again that term didn't really come to the pop culture forefront until BSB and NSync got so big that they began to get backlash from their immense popularity. Groups like Boyz II Men, All 4 One and Take 6 don't recieve that label. I think nowadays that term is better used for groups that were put together. We've been together since our early high school days so there's nothing fabricated here. We taught ourselves (with the help of one of our fathers) how to produce our own records and eventually found our own sound. Everything you hear on this album is us. Everything from the backing tracks and lyrics to the vocal production and mixing we did ourselves. So no we wouldn't label ourselves as such but we'll let the public and the media come up with their own labels. Our goal is to make the best and most heartfelt music possible.
2. Being indie artists(I assume..), do you want a major label contract or are you happy with what you have at the moment?
Honestly when we first started we were so determined to get signed to just about whatever came our way. We thought it would be easy but we were in for a rude awakening. But as we continued down this road of independence we learned that maybe that road isn't for us. We have so much freedom to make the music we feel needs to be heard. Signing to a label without making them come to us would just cause us to have to compromise our sound. So I guess the answer to that answer is Yes. So far we truly feel we're fulfilling our destiny.
3. Over the years after getting to know a lot of vocal groups, watching how they debut, get famous then split up as well as being in a group myself, I've noticed that there's a certain dynamic needed between the members to properly last over a certain time period - to exceed the shelf life of a vocal group/boyband. Your bio says that you've been together since 2000 - what's the secret to the group lasting this long?
It's really all about Love. It's the reason our album title is "Love Changes Things". You treat people differently because you want the best for yourself and others. We can tell each other about each others faults and shortcomings without the fear that what we say might rub the other the wrong way. Not only do we have a brotherhood, but we also know that whenever we approach one another respectfully with a suggestion or complaint it's out of us wanting the best for each other.
4. Is music first priority for you? Above trying to break the industry, making tons and tons of money or having hoards of screaming girls running after you wherever you go - do you always want to make music that moves people and has the ability to cross generations? Why?
Definitely, you hit it right on the head. We've been approached by big name producers and labels with the lure of riches at their side but in order to play the game we had to play it their way. We were fortunate enough to find our way and make a decision to not send the wrong message through our music before they came knocking. From the very beginning music was about how it made you feel. Even in this commercialized industry artists like Robin Thicke and John Mayer still gain noteriety and success while still maintaining their integrity. We plan to do the same and stay true to the music that comes from our hearts.
5. You've opened for The Temptations, I've heard. What part of the group - their career, vocals, music, the respect people have for them or whatever, do you want for yourselves?
To even attain a fraction of their success or to be mentioned in the same sentence would be a blessing within itself. If we would have to choose it would be the respect they achieved from their peers. Whether competition or label mates (though we're sure that's the same category since Motown had a reputation for their in-house competitive spirit) they we're always respected for their body of work, and their work ethic. Their vocal delivery was impeccable, their songs we're memorable and they laid the blueprint for many groups that came after them.
6. One of the things I look at in a boyband/vocal group, apart from amazing songs is their ability to do brilliant a capella work. Powerful vocals that fit together like puzzle pieces - the reason why I adore my favorite boyband is because they can nail a five-part harmony like no other. Can you guys nail a four-part harmony that'll make me faint?
We pride ourselves in knowing that we can always be better as musicians, vocalists, producers and people. So we're not one to toot our own horn, but in our own humble opionion we can throw in some ninths and sustains with some dynamics that were pretty sure can get us kudos from the most seasoned musician.
7. Why do you want to make music?
Our parents all loved music so maybe we had no choice! lol...But we truly enjoy singing together and making music. We even enjoy working towards perfecting our harmonies, dance steps and vocal delivery at our rehearsals. This honestly feels like what we were supposed to do. Some people never find out what they truly want to do with their lives, we're just happy and blessed that we did.
8. How does your song selection process work? Do you write most of your material or do you work with other people and around how many songs did you consider to put on the album?
At one point we had 15. If you count all the songs that could have possibly been placed on this album the number rises past twenty. Like we said we write and produce all our own music. Although it was something we didn't plan, we really had no choice. We haven't really met many writers or producers that had an energy about them that just clicked with ours. Chemistry is so important. It's something we have now after years of working with each other. With us song selection is just a feeling we all get. We usually know by the time we get to writing the Hook/Chorus whether it's a good song or not and we're usually all in agreement. The best compositions are the ones that just come together so quickly that we're dumbfounded. We're just vessels for the music. The songs we picked for this album all represent how love can change things in one persons life in one form or the other. They all fall in line with the motto we live and operate by.
9. What do you want to be remembered for in the next 10 or 20 years?
We want to be remembered as the group that never gave up. The group that persevered and continued to fight an industry that makes you pay if you want to play. The group that tore down walls and built new ones. The group that reminded listeners that we're just like everybody else. Four regular guys with just a dream. The group that reminded everybody that the right kind of love can allow us to do anything we wish to do in our lifetimes.
There's such a stigma and preconceived notion that comes to mind when the term "boyband" is used. Maybe "Vocal Group" would be better. But then again that term didn't really come to the pop culture forefront until BSB and NSync got so big that they began to get backlash from their immense popularity. Groups like Boyz II Men, All 4 One and Take 6 don't recieve that label. I think nowadays that term is better used for groups that were put together. We've been together since our early high school days so there's nothing fabricated here. We taught ourselves (with the help of one of our fathers) how to produce our own records and eventually found our own sound. Everything you hear on this album is us. Everything from the backing tracks and lyrics to the vocal production and mixing we did ourselves. So no we wouldn't label ourselves as such but we'll let the public and the media come up with their own labels. Our goal is to make the best and most heartfelt music possible.
2. Being indie artists(I assume..), do you want a major label contract or are you happy with what you have at the moment?
Honestly when we first started we were so determined to get signed to just about whatever came our way. We thought it would be easy but we were in for a rude awakening. But as we continued down this road of independence we learned that maybe that road isn't for us. We have so much freedom to make the music we feel needs to be heard. Signing to a label without making them come to us would just cause us to have to compromise our sound. So I guess the answer to that answer is Yes. So far we truly feel we're fulfilling our destiny.
3. Over the years after getting to know a lot of vocal groups, watching how they debut, get famous then split up as well as being in a group myself, I've noticed that there's a certain dynamic needed between the members to properly last over a certain time period - to exceed the shelf life of a vocal group/boyband. Your bio says that you've been together since 2000 - what's the secret to the group lasting this long?
It's really all about Love. It's the reason our album title is "Love Changes Things". You treat people differently because you want the best for yourself and others. We can tell each other about each others faults and shortcomings without the fear that what we say might rub the other the wrong way. Not only do we have a brotherhood, but we also know that whenever we approach one another respectfully with a suggestion or complaint it's out of us wanting the best for each other.
4. Is music first priority for you? Above trying to break the industry, making tons and tons of money or having hoards of screaming girls running after you wherever you go - do you always want to make music that moves people and has the ability to cross generations? Why?
Definitely, you hit it right on the head. We've been approached by big name producers and labels with the lure of riches at their side but in order to play the game we had to play it their way. We were fortunate enough to find our way and make a decision to not send the wrong message through our music before they came knocking. From the very beginning music was about how it made you feel. Even in this commercialized industry artists like Robin Thicke and John Mayer still gain noteriety and success while still maintaining their integrity. We plan to do the same and stay true to the music that comes from our hearts.
5. You've opened for The Temptations, I've heard. What part of the group - their career, vocals, music, the respect people have for them or whatever, do you want for yourselves?
To even attain a fraction of their success or to be mentioned in the same sentence would be a blessing within itself. If we would have to choose it would be the respect they achieved from their peers. Whether competition or label mates (though we're sure that's the same category since Motown had a reputation for their in-house competitive spirit) they we're always respected for their body of work, and their work ethic. Their vocal delivery was impeccable, their songs we're memorable and they laid the blueprint for many groups that came after them.
6. One of the things I look at in a boyband/vocal group, apart from amazing songs is their ability to do brilliant a capella work. Powerful vocals that fit together like puzzle pieces - the reason why I adore my favorite boyband is because they can nail a five-part harmony like no other. Can you guys nail a four-part harmony that'll make me faint?
We pride ourselves in knowing that we can always be better as musicians, vocalists, producers and people. So we're not one to toot our own horn, but in our own humble opionion we can throw in some ninths and sustains with some dynamics that were pretty sure can get us kudos from the most seasoned musician.
7. Why do you want to make music?
Our parents all loved music so maybe we had no choice! lol...But we truly enjoy singing together and making music. We even enjoy working towards perfecting our harmonies, dance steps and vocal delivery at our rehearsals. This honestly feels like what we were supposed to do. Some people never find out what they truly want to do with their lives, we're just happy and blessed that we did.
8. How does your song selection process work? Do you write most of your material or do you work with other people and around how many songs did you consider to put on the album?
At one point we had 15. If you count all the songs that could have possibly been placed on this album the number rises past twenty. Like we said we write and produce all our own music. Although it was something we didn't plan, we really had no choice. We haven't really met many writers or producers that had an energy about them that just clicked with ours. Chemistry is so important. It's something we have now after years of working with each other. With us song selection is just a feeling we all get. We usually know by the time we get to writing the Hook/Chorus whether it's a good song or not and we're usually all in agreement. The best compositions are the ones that just come together so quickly that we're dumbfounded. We're just vessels for the music. The songs we picked for this album all represent how love can change things in one persons life in one form or the other. They all fall in line with the motto we live and operate by.
9. What do you want to be remembered for in the next 10 or 20 years?
We want to be remembered as the group that never gave up. The group that persevered and continued to fight an industry that makes you pay if you want to play. The group that tore down walls and built new ones. The group that reminded listeners that we're just like everybody else. Four regular guys with just a dream. The group that reminded everybody that the right kind of love can allow us to do anything we wish to do in our lifetimes.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
The DMCA takedown notification.
When will I ever get to blogging here more often? I'll try.
I've talked about the DMCA takedown notification on both of my more public blogs but I want to talk about it as a writer, not a music blogger or a kid.
One of the reasons why I bawled a few minutes after what had happened actually sunk in was because I realized what I had lost that day. Above the fact that it's unjust and against my principles, I'm a writer - I love writing. I don't blog because I have to, because I'm paid to or for some strange reason - I blog because I can always look back at past posts whether it be a day or a year ago and see how I've grown as a writer. Because blogger deleted one of my posts, I'll never be able to see how I wrote during that particular period.
It's honestly like I lost a part of myself.
Here I am writing so I get better, learn technique and grow into someone worth listening to and then Blogger takes away a part of that. I work hard for all my posts - I put a lot of thought, time and my skills into each and every word or sentence I write but Blogger doesn't seem to care.
Is this because I'm a kid? That they think I'm vulnerable and wouldn't mind if they delete a post? I hate it when people think that just because I'm fourteen I don't have my own opinions and passions - that all I care about is Facebook, texting, twitter and boys. I don't care about Facebook, I don't text and I'm in no way interested in guys. Twitter is forgivable.
ANYWAY. I have passions, ambitions and I want to make something of myself. People may see family pressure as a negative thing but I see it as motivation. All my other cousins are successful in their fields - science, math, business, medicine and are at the very least 6 years older than me so it makes me want to be able to say 'OK, you're good at science and I'm good at writing,' - it's something I want to do. For once in my life I want to feel like I belong, like I'm as good as them.
I'm straying from the topic but you get the point - Blogger took away a part of me and I absolutely hate that.
I've talked about the DMCA takedown notification on both of my more public blogs but I want to talk about it as a writer, not a music blogger or a kid.
One of the reasons why I bawled a few minutes after what had happened actually sunk in was because I realized what I had lost that day. Above the fact that it's unjust and against my principles, I'm a writer - I love writing. I don't blog because I have to, because I'm paid to or for some strange reason - I blog because I can always look back at past posts whether it be a day or a year ago and see how I've grown as a writer. Because blogger deleted one of my posts, I'll never be able to see how I wrote during that particular period.
It's honestly like I lost a part of myself.
Here I am writing so I get better, learn technique and grow into someone worth listening to and then Blogger takes away a part of that. I work hard for all my posts - I put a lot of thought, time and my skills into each and every word or sentence I write but Blogger doesn't seem to care.
Is this because I'm a kid? That they think I'm vulnerable and wouldn't mind if they delete a post? I hate it when people think that just because I'm fourteen I don't have my own opinions and passions - that all I care about is Facebook, texting, twitter and boys. I don't care about Facebook, I don't text and I'm in no way interested in guys. Twitter is forgivable.
ANYWAY. I have passions, ambitions and I want to make something of myself. People may see family pressure as a negative thing but I see it as motivation. All my other cousins are successful in their fields - science, math, business, medicine and are at the very least 6 years older than me so it makes me want to be able to say 'OK, you're good at science and I'm good at writing,' - it's something I want to do. For once in my life I want to feel like I belong, like I'm as good as them.
I'm straying from the topic but you get the point - Blogger took away a part of me and I absolutely hate that.